Yesterday was not a good day for me. I succumbed. I got back into bed and stayed there. Pookie visited me after work. He brought me soup and made me tea. I began to feel a bit better. This morning sees me feeling not 100% but not so bad that I need to be in bed. I’ve been talking to recruiters and the jobs they got are not interesting me in any way. In fact, they scare me a bit. Maybe I am just being cynical but they all seem to be cold call until your feet curl, no one wants the product-nightmares.

I keep trying to figure out what I want to do. I want to help people buy the right software solutions for their unique needs and help them adopt it successfully. Can that be? Or am I saying that because that’s what I’ve been doing? If I could do anything- what would I do? Nothing. I’d surf the web and update my blog. I’d go on walks and watch movies. See, that’s the difference between Steve Jobs and me. Steve Jobs thinks, “I’ll create a graphical operating system for the masses and a CGI animation studio! And I just want to surf the web. I really do like creating Web pages. However ever since simple HTML was replaced with CSS and DHTML, etc, I can’t imagine it’s something I can do. I once took a C/C++ course and I COULDN’T FINISH IT! I DROPPED OUT! My mind doesn’t work in that way. And to top it all off, I am not all that artistic. So how silly is this? Can I be a freelance Webpage designer using a 1 click install of WordPress and WordPress themes? I could target extremely small businesses and hope they don’t want me to change a column width. I feel like I am flailing. Maybe it’s time for me to go back to bed. I don’t feel well.