Tomorrow I fly to Chicago. Thursday is the interview. I feel absolutely paralytic! I have gone through so many feelings and moods concerning the last interview and lost job as well as this new possible job….that I now feel ambivalent. I just don’t care even though I want this job soooo much! I hate the guy who I am interviewing with because he rejected me the last time. How can I go and be polite and schmoozy when I just want to spit in his face? I am almost emabarassed to show up. Will he think me desperate or tenacious? Obviously there is too much useless thought going on here. There are other jobs out there, I have nothing to lose.