I started getting ready at 7:30. I don’t need to leave until 10:30. Three hours is too much time to fill. I ate, I showered, I dressed, I powdered, I made-up, I rolled, I brushed, I scrubbed, I moisturized… And I have an hour left. This interview process has been extreme. I doubt Carol Bartz had to jump through so many hoops. In a way I feel like I am back on eHarmony.com. And one of the problems I had with the dating Web sites is that I lost focus on what I really wanted. Back then, I wanted to find a boyfriend who possessed certain qualities but after awhile I started forgetting about the boyfriend bit and started fixating on just trying to get a second date, trying to find someone, anyone who liked me. And I am trying to make sure I am not making that mistake again. I haven’t followed this through because I just want someone, anyone to want me; I am following this through because it’s a killer opp.

So I am wearing my black with blue piping, asymmetrical Issac Mizrahi pseudo-wrap dress from Target. I feel good. I am ready. Closure will be had soon– one way or the other.