I spent Monday evening watching La Femme Nikita episodes (Season 2 where it is discovered that Michael has a secret wife and child!) and cleaning up my room. I am struggling to keep one of my New Year’s Resolutions. Oddly enough, I am doing really well at hanging up my clothes at night, the area where I am faltering is putting away clothes that I had packed in an overnight bag or clothes that I just washed and folded. Last night I put them away and I promised myself that I would do better in the future.

Recently I bought a shoe rack that holds 30 pairs of shoes. It is totally filled. Yet why is it that I hardly have any shoes to wear? I keep going through them determined to get rid of pairs I don’t use… but I can’t! They are all necessary to my survival in this world. I don’t understand. I don’t understand why I have so many shoes, why I rarely wear those that I have and why I feel I need more.

Perhaps it all comes down to that insane belief that one day I will find the perfect pair of shoes, perfect outfit, perfect dress that will render my life perfect. Ha!

The funny thing about the shoe rack is that the picture on the box showed how lovely the rack looked full of shoes. I think the shoes they used were size 6s because let me tell you, my petite size 11s BARELY fit. I am constantly picking up shoes that FELL OFF THE RACK. Ahhhh, the struggles of living life as a sasquatch.