I am so tired and I feel beat up. Of late it seems like everything just keeps getting worse. I am really trying hard to not let anything affect me.
In the morning I don’t want to wake up. But I do. This entie week had me driving for tomorrow. Why? ‘Cause I go home. Now I sleep.

I spent far too long deleting trackback spam. Then I realized I could batch delete it with MT Blacklist. DUH!?!

The other day I went to a dinner party with Glenn. His friends Alex and Asook invited a bunch of friends over for a Korean dinner. The food was terrific! Asook made everything herself. Their little daughter ran around and Asook stayed in the kitchen frying. She would come out to put food in front of us and joke and laugh. She was so happy. If I was in that postion, I would have been hyperventilating! Too many people, too many things to do, possible failure so close at hand! Asook was calm and lovely. This afternoon at work, when everything seemed to be falling apart and I was at my most anxious, I thought of Asook. Smiling and laughing and not letting anything get to her. I decided to not let any of the events get to me. I mean, what is the worst that could happen? It’s not like I work in a field where people will die if I make a mistake.

Thursday I leave. One more night here. I can’t wait to go home.